Dear Diary,

Much have happened while i haven’t written in you and now finally I got some time by myself. These months have been hard for me, so confusing and different then my whole life have been in ages.

I meet Sedrick, what a guy he is. He’s handsome, strong, funny, lovingly, good in bed? *Last thing is tries hidden by a droodel* Enyways he’s a worgen to just like me and we where together long and wide hunting in the night together, we where so happy! It felt like I weren’t the “Shadow-Rose” anymore, but that I was the real Bixenta. Doh one day Sedrick said he would find an cure for us and travelled away and I waited for him , but after an month I was afraid he wouldn’t return and I actually cried alone hidden on the Fray island and the others in the Ashes of Laido tries cheer me up.

While I was in my depression an new worgen showed up, but he wasn’t an complete on he had problems fully changing he was just part worgen when he was in his beast form. His name sis Wooshi and I never thought I would have so much interest of an dwarf. He tried cheer me up he and Takunos was one of the only people in the guild not afraid me at night they helped me hunt and not take to many life’s in the Barren lands.

I decided to finally try to let go of Sedrick after the month of waiting and this Wooshi the dwarf worgen took me to places I should ever dream of to see, oasis, clefs, exotic animal life and deep wonderful woods in the eleven lands. I think I fell in love, I don’t even think I’m sure, I am or was.

Anyway I went together with Wooshi we travelled together we lived together and well he forced me to eat food again. When he finally had forgotten my Sorrow Sedrick was standing there and I was so happy to see him, I rushed to him hugging and kissing him and then suddenly remembered Wooshi and I looked behind me where he stood like something hard had smashed him in the face. I never felt so bad and never had a so hard choose before. To choose between Sedrick and Wooshi but in the end I took Wooshi but I got no idea why and even to day I feel a little grain of regret not taking Sedrick.

Now I’m Wooshi’s fiancé and he says he can’t wait for the wedding he’s so happy when I’m with him but I can still feel that little sting of regret, but Sedrick isn’t here anymore I’m sure he found someone else to hunt with or that he travelled long away hating me.

But what am I meant to do? I’m going to be married soon to the man that seems to have done the big thing making me pregnant, yes I think I’m baring Wooshi’s child and this is a scary

I’m not meant to be a mother….

Bixenta Ivanaska Sanlaerdo