So long since I wrote in this, my hand is shaking so much I can hardly hold the pen. I feel it is necessary to write down how I am feeling now, before I do something even more stupid than I already have.

I killed her, I killed Taipia! Now what? I can’t return to Stormwind because the Watch and the LBC will be calling out for my blood. I can’t see any friends because I am scared of what I may do. Things shouldn’t have turned out this way, I was happy.

Why is life so cruel as to throw me into such an emotional breakdown, weeks ago I was a fun loving Gnome, who couldn’t stand to be away from Taipia, and now, I’m a cold blooded killer. I just wish I could make the pain go away, I loved Taipia, even until the last second, even when I saw the last breath seep out from her lungs and her eyes roll back into her head. She went limp, I knew she was dead, I couldn’t do anything about it. I just ran like the coward I am, if I could… I would turn back time, back to when I first met Taipia, just to enjoy the good times once more, to hold hands with her, to cuddle her in the Pig n’ Whistle. But that is just a dream, I’m stuck her to wallow in my own torment for an eternity.

I’ve never felt hatred like I have towards myself.